Thoughts of Thursday




I'm in one of those moods where I just really want to ramble so I hope you don't mind but you're the victim of my thoughts today. I think loads of rubbish in my mind has just built up because I've not done much recently and I think that's why I need to let it all out before I explode. 

Right now I feel like I'm just failing at everything. I'm probably not but everything around me seems to be making me feel like a failure. My boyfriend's just got his first full-time job and I feel such a let down that I'm not working. In my defense I have applied for the apprenticeship I want, I've got a place at the boot camp so all I have left now is to wait. I blog every single day and although I don't get paid for any part of my blogging at the moment I really do want JennieWren3 to one day become part of my working life. I feel like every single day I'm trying harder to become more successful and yet I feel like I'm failing. 

I've kind of given up on the whole health kick I had. I don't want to give up but I have too many distractions around me such as Jaffa Cakes and Coca-Cola. It doesn't help that my dad doesn't really buy in the produce I ask for because apparently I "waste" the fruit. I don't have enough money right now to be spending it on fruit and veg every week. My fitness motivation has gone completely - I've used my exercise mat ONCE all summer...once. Sigh. 

Is anyone else excited for Christmas? I don't know why I'm wish Summer away as I'm going to Wales next week and Leeds Festival the week after. I think it's because I miss the cosy nights in and stuff like that. I'm so excited to be able to go into Costa at around 6pm when it's dark (!!!) and buy myself a Honeycomb Hot Chocolate. I'm excited to go to the Christmas markets and scoff a load of nutella and banana pancakes. Ah, I'm such a child. 

Sorry for the ramble but I think I needed to get all of this out! 

Lots of Love
Jen xo

2 comments:

  1. Aww sweetie , dont feel like a failure. Things will get better I promise :)Everyone goes through a stage of feeling like that. And let me tell you, you are NOT a failure. You are a beautiful wonderful ambitious young lady! You just have to be patience and you will eventually get to where you want too be and the wait will be worth it :) And I second that about costa haha I love the dark cosy early winter nights :)Nothing more perfect than relaxing with a costa hot chocolate haha :)
    Ava xox
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