Not a girl, not yet a woman

No, this isn't going to be a Britney Spears inspired post, this is all about growing up but also still being young. Right now I am 17, almost 18. Part of me feels quite old but there's a whole other side to me that's very young still. 

I currently feel as though I am getting so much more mature, sophisticated yet little things make me seem so much younger. I am currently career focused. At 17 I didn't expect that I'd be wanting to have my own business and being big and successful. Most people will think that teens should be having fun, getting drunk, having a social life but me; nahhh. Instead I'm buying books from the business and management section of Waterstones, making lists about things I want to invest money into and writing sophisticated e-mails. 

When do you actually become an adult? I know it's meant to be when you turn 18 but when do you actually feel like an adult? I'm still so childish within myself. I'm extremely close to my mum and dad, pull a few tantrums when I don't get what I want, sit on my backside a lot of the time and still don't know how to work the hoover. I'm sure I will begin to do those jobs but how come my brain is aged about 25 but my body is actually still around 14? 

I'm definitely at that in-between age but I don't think this age will be here for too long. I wish it would, I quite like it but I know some of my child-like habits will need to come to an end soon. Ah well. 

Lots of Love
Jen xo


  1. Comment from a 26 year old here. In my experience, you never feel older, you just know more. When I was 17, I moved into a house by myself - and I'll be honest, I was terrified. I had no idea how to pay a council tax bill, read an electric meter or work out what my tax code was. I still had big ideas, and spent all my time and energy planning an elaborate, sophisticated future where I'd be a CEO before I was 30. I look back I suppose I seemed a bit silly to everyone else - a bit of dreamer with grand ideas but no idea how to manage a household. That was 9 years ago. I don't feel any different - I still feel the same, I just know a lot more and understanding how to deal with situations life throws at me. I still dream big, I'm just a bit more realistic about my ideas. Hope that provides some insight!

  2. Thanks that did help! I couldn't imagine moving out right now, when I think about it at school I didn't get taught much about coping with bills, how to buy a house and all of the important things in life.