Finding Jennie


I don't think anyone will understand how difficult I've found trying to blog again. It got to the point I had to have a lil' cry to my mum about it because I just felt so lost. I want to be personal again, like I've always been but I don't want to get too personal because I know who's reading this or who could read this and I'm not ready to let so much out for them to see it. So it's put me in a bit of a difficult position of wondering what the hell I'm meant to write about. It's called Jennie Wren 3 for a reason and that's because it's about me, my thoughts, my life.

My mum's words were just to write about finding yourself so I guess that's what I'll do.

I deleted my original post about the big change I went through because I was worried I let way too much out and I wasn't ready for too many people to read about it and I'm still not ready to let too much out. So in short, mid-May I ended a 3 and a half year relationship that I wasn't happy in.

Now it's September and a lot has happened and I finally feel happy again. Obviously I still have some negative moments, it would be weird not to, but overall I'm genuinely so happy with everything that's going on in my life.

One of my biggest fears was to be alone but I can't even express how stupid that was to think. My whole Summer has been literally full of my friends, both new and old.

On a walk to work this morning, when I forgot to bring my earphones I spent the whole walk just thinking about every single thing that's happening in my life right now and how much I've changed as a person since May.

I have actually blossomed and that doesn't mean I'm blowing my own trumpet because I'm definitely not, I'm still full of flaws, but like Laura said I'm character building. She mentioned that once and it stuck with me for weeks because she's right. If you're not happy with yourself then sort yourself out and be the best you you can be.

My biggest flaw this Summer is the amount of drinking I've done. I didn't go to uni and I barely drank whilst I was in a relationship so I've completely taken advantage of this amount of freedom I have and I've practically gone out every weekend since May. I actually got put on a ban for a week because of how stupid it had got. It's all fun and games until you literally can't remember your night but you're £40 down and you've done stuff you'll definitely regret in the future.

Since one particular night in August I haven't had a jagerbomb because I know they mess me up badly. I also realised I was drinking because I wanted to block out any sad thoughts and that should definitely not be a reason to drink. I'm over that now anyway, I'm back in a happy place because I've had chance to process my thoughts and care about myself.


My friends have been my rock this Summer. As much as I'm close to my family, my friends see things in a completely different perspective and that's exactly what I've needed. I won't drop names because I don't want to accidentally forget anybody but I'll just describe things that I appreciate from certain people.


So I have a best friend that I've had for a few years now, ever since college we were very close, but this Summer we got so close and she is an incredible person. I've needed someone who's just brutally honest with me. I can't stand people that don't tell me how they really feel and don't tell me when I'm wrong. This girl does. She put me on a drinking ban because of the way I was becoming, she told me when I was being a dick because I couldn't see it myself but she also made me feel really good about myself and I love that. I've made so many memories with her and she's the reason I had any sort of Summer so I'm very grateful of this person.



Two others are my friends from miles away. I've known them for 7 years but never met them, well I met one at a gig but it was brief. They both came to Manchester to see me and it was honestly one of the best memories of my whole Summer. They've both been my support system and I can definitely see us being best friends forever and that's a rare thing for me to think so they must be mint, right?


Another girl I've got really close to is like the blue-haired version of me. Except she's like 10x more crazy. She's the girl I go to when I'm feeling pretty low with my love life because we both get ourselves in similar situations and feel the same things about certain stuff so that's how we connect well. You'll probably see loads more of her because we're gigging it up next month for You Me At Six.



I rekindled like five friendships this Summer and it was the best decision I made. One of them being my male best friend of like 7 years. We didn't speak for 3 of them so it was nice that I was welcomed back into his life with open arms. I know if I'm ever in need of just a chat or a male perspective on things then he'll be there. Another friendship was with a girl that I was best friends with when I was 15. We helped each other through difficult times back then and just drifted but we got back in touch and become so close recently, it's like nothing has changed and that's the best kind of love. Another friend I was close to in school and we've made so many memories this Summer. A lot has happened to us both in this time and we don't agree on everything but we're still going strong and that's good. I also got pretty close to one of my college friends this Summer. We talk a lot about lad drama and she came on my pre-birthday night out and that was a lot of fun. I'm looking forward to creating a shit-load more memories with this one. Last but not least, I became close to one of oldest friends (friends since we were 4) and we've spent loads of time together (mostly drunk) and loads of memories. She was the friend that got me home safe when I was paralytic a month ago and held her hand over my mouth incase I threw up. True pal that is.



I've become good friends with a few guys too, one in particular I would definitely class as my best friend. He's a good person to talk to about anything because he's just full of wisdom and I need some of that in my life to be honest.


Now moving on to myself, seeing as this is called Finding Jennie, I definitely think I'm still finding her but I've found a lot out about her recently. I feel a lot more confident now about myself in general, my personality, my looks, my body. There's a lot that needs to be improved but it'll happen in time. Rome wasn't built in a day so I'm not going to rush myself into being this person that I want to be, small changes are happening every single day though and I'm happy with that.


What's happening now? I'm definitely living for the moment. Sometimes that means being skint but I'd rather be rich in memories than rich in money (lol, quite cheesy that). A lot of my friends have gone back to uni now but I'm not worried because I've got some other close people that can occupy my time. I have a few gigs lined up for the rest of the year - The Sherlocks, You Me At Six and Bring Me The Horizon and potentially a few more. I want to focus more on my family now. This time of year is full of a lot of their birthday's so I want to make them feel special. I've also got a nephew or niece due in November so I'm really excited for that, he/she will be the perfect end to a crazy year. I've also started seeing someone and it's going good but I'm taking it slow. I just thought he deserved a little mention.

So, I promise now this won't be the last you hear from me for months. I have a few posts planned including a Brighton post, Leeds Fest post and a few more to keep it busy on here. I've missed blogging but I hope you can understand why I've found it so difficult to blog. I'm hoping now that I'm back to writing again it'll sort my mind out a little bit, because that keeps going all over the place - but that's another story.

love Jennie x  

A Day Out To York


Just over a week ago myself and Izzy embarked on a little adventure to York for the day to visit The York Dungeon. What could've been a very easy and exciting trip for me and my friend actually turned out to be pretty difficult because we made the bad choice to go out the night before. Bad humans. 

So the first disaster happened when I woke up at 9:15am and looked at my phone. I was definitely still drunk, quickly wrote a message to my mates to let them know I'm alive and then realised after a good 30 seconds that I was meant to be going to York. 

After a very quick shower, a bite of a bacon butty and a quick be-sick-down the loo because of too many jagerbombs...we got in a taxi. By this point it was around 10:40am and our coach left Manchester at 11:15am and we still had to get to Manchester from where we live. I still had hope though!

When we got on the tram I definitely knew I was still a little bit drunk because I was singing Vengaboys with an audience. Sorry about that. We got into Victoria Station at about 11:09am and realised we were definitely not making that coach so we headed to McDonalds to try and make ourselves feel human again and then I booked us some new tickets for 12:15pm. 

We got on the coach and my first thought was 'yay, plug sockets, I can Snapchat to my heart's content". Izzy gets travel sick so I was pretty worried on our first coach to Leeds because it was extremely rocky and even I kept thinking I would spew. 

When we got to Leeds we were both extremely grateful to not be on the road anymore and took this time to go and sit outside on a bench, pigeon-watching whilst we waited for our next coach to York. We also bought some crisps because we felt rough and needed to sort ourselves out. 

After arriving in York we had about a 10 minute walk to get to York Dungeons. It's really simple if you have maps on your phone to follow but otherwise you may need directions as we didn't see any signs pointing to where it is unfortunately! 

When we got there the first thing we got to do was be given a sword/axe and turn ourselves into a Viking by standing in front of a green screen and getting our picture taken. The first thing I realised is the staff there are so much fun and get into character straight away. You then went over to a guy in a lit up box where you can buy your tickets as well as sweets and drinks. 

You're then directed to go through to a very dark waiting area where you wait for a period of time for a group of people to form and then eventually it begins.

I don't want to spoil the dungeons too much because it's better to experience it but you basically get led through the dungeons and be part of a story and you really get yourselves involved. I learnt so much about that period of time during that day! 


When it's all finished you get led into the souvenir shop where you get the opportunity to buy the photos you took earlier and also a large selection of goodies. 

After this we had about 20 minutes to get back to the coach stop so we practically ran through York. We were actually early so paid an extortionate price of £3.95 for a cheese and onion pasty. I know, you're right, that is bloody expensive. But there wasn't a Greggs. It started to rain so I couldn't eat it whilst we waited for the coach. So I was sad. Then we got on our "coach" which was actually a double decker bus and me and Izzy couldn't sit together so I still couldn't eat the pasty, otherwise I would've annoyed the girl next to me. Eventually though people got off and we were reunited so we ate our pasties together so I was happy again. 

When we got back into Leeds we had to wait like 30 minutes for another coach so we just spent this time chatting away in Leeds Station. The final coach was pretty easy and the time flew by. 

When we got to Manchester we were hungry so we made a pit stop to McDonald's and got a few things to nibble on (I'm talking fries and cheese burger) whilst getting on the tram home. That Mcdonalds was actually crazy. There are bars on the windows, they have security and when we went in some guy was kicking off. I mean I love me a cheese burger but I didn't realise people were that mad for a maccies. 


Finally we got home around 9pm (ish) and I was still hungry so I devoured the most amazing cheesy beans on onion bagels. This meal has always been one of my favourites because it's so simple and quick to make and as I was tired it seemed like it was definitely the best option for me. 

The moral of this story is don't drink jagerbombs or make plans on days that you're meant to stay in bed. 

lots of love
Jennie x 

**A special thanks to Branston Baked Beans and their partnership with Merlin Entertainments for this amazing opportunity! It was such a fun day out, I got to visit a new place in the UK and it cured my hangover. I would definitely recommend York Dungeons to anybody looking for a good day out. 

April through Instagram


First of all, let me apologise for the lack of posts last month. I went away last week and spent most of April preparing myself for my holiday and found I didn't have much spare time to do any blogging! I did get up to some fun things during the month though and once again, captured it all and logged it on to my Instagram.


The first post of April was this really cute picture of me and my niece Ella. I love quality time with any of my nieces and nephew and I spend a lot of my time with them so that's probably why they get shown a lot every month!


Then we have a selfie, which I seem to have started taking more of! This one was taken when I was off to work and decided to slap on some MAC Cyber and sport a bit of a gothic look.


It felt very Spring-like in April and I enjoyed taking advantage of the lighter evenings, especially when I would go to Ellis' house and sit in his garden.


I love taking good pictures of my boyfriend and I'm not afraid to overshare him on my Instagram. I love this shot of him in his Drop Dead snapback that I bought him for Christmas!


One of my favourite parts of the weekend is walking through the woods on a Sunday with Ellis and it's always made better when the sun comes out!


I did a lot of holiday shopping at the end of March which all arrived at once! I also wrote a haul too and expect to see more of what I bought in fashion posts that I have planned in the next few weeks!


I really upped my fitness game this month! I got myself an awesome pair of Virus Stay Cool Compression Pants and started exercising 3-4 times a week! I've noticed a bit of a difference but I've let myself down towards the end of the month so really want to pick up where I left off this month! You can get 10% off anything at Virus Performance UK using my discount code: WREN10


After months of umming and arring about if I would be able to see Muse when they played Manchester Arena, me and my mum decided to get very last minute tickets and had such an amazing night. I'd seen Muse live in 2011 at Leeds Festival and just really loved them! They put on an awesome show, I danced, got sweaty and almost lost my hearing. It was worth it!


The night we saw Muse was a gorgeous evening, it was sunny but it had been raining, luckily it stopped whilst we were walking through Manchester to the arena after going for food at the Infamous Diner.


One day in the month my dad treated me to my lunch in my local town centre. We don't have many nice places to eat where we live but one place is Katsouris and I always choose a Parma Ham ciabatta sandwich and this time I opted for a cappuccino - it looked that good I obviously had to take a picture.


On one evening after work the weather was that nice that I just could not stay in so I decided to take my niece and nephew off my sisters hands for an hour and take them to the park to let out all their energy before bedtime! Those kids are crazy!


On the 23rd was my dad's birthday! I spent the morning with him and took him for breakfast at Katsouris and then in the afternoon/evening it was my grandad's 80th party. Here's a picture of me and Ellis wearing matching outfits again!


There was loads of kids at the party. Here's a load of my cousins trying to steal my tiara - they didn't think I was worthy of it! :(


I love this picture of me and Ellis. It's actually an old picture but I was in a bit of an emotional mood and when I'm like that I tend to look back at old pictures of us and think about how far with come together!


Another image of the sky after work! The weather was mixed that day and I liked the way it made everything look.


And yet another image of the sky to finish the month on. Me and my dad went to see Captain America Civil War as his birthday treat (Team Cap in case you're wondering) and this was the sky after the cinema. I just liked the different shades of blue - I love a good sky.

That's it for April. I've already taken loads of pictures for May because I went away last week! If you want to see them then follow my Instagram, otherwise you'll have to wait until the end of the month!

lots of love

Jennie x 

How to get a bikini body


Well, I definitely chose that title because I'm pretty sure that's good for SEO. If you've come to this post to read lots of tips and tricks to lose lots of weight in a month, by dieting and working through a very strict and terrifying workout plan, you've come to the wrong place. If you've come to find a few ways to boost your confidence when on holiday by doing a few things different before you go away then read on!

Going on a beach holiday is a wonderful thing - sun, sea, sand, cocktails, food etc. As I spend 95% of the year in full clothing, the thought of bikinis sends a wrenching feeling to my stomach.

I've never been confident with my body. I'm not overweight but I don't have a body like Kylie Jenner therefore I don't class my body as good enough to wear a bikini and prance around a pool in minimal clothing, even if I know nobody there. Because although the only person I actually know on holiday is my boyfriend, pictures need to be taken and uploaded to all social media accounts and I would rather not look like Mrs Blobby when posting said holiday spam.

I decided to take it upon myself to try and sort my body out and although I will not be 100% happy with my body, I can already see a lot of improvements.

An area I'm really not happy with is my thighs. I have a lot of cellulite because to cut a long story short I eat a lot of rubbish and although said rubbish may be tasty, it also contributes to a woman's biggest fear - orange peel skin. I never really took care of my body anyway, barely ever moisturising so I suffer from a lot of dry skin and don't even get me started on exfoliating - I am far too lazy for that. So as I said in my last post, I bought myself a Dry Brush from Feelunique.com. I've started just giving myself a brush down (like you would to a dog to get rid of malting fur) just before I go for a shower and when I've come out of the shower, tah-dah I am now a soft-skinned. I still have cellulite. This brush isn't really magic, but I can see that my thighs are improving and if I keep on top of it hopefully the cellulite will eventually be less noticeable.

So, the next thing on my agenda was actually losing a little bit of weight, because although my BMI states I'm a good weight, I have excess fat in areas I wish I didn't so exercise was needed. I got told to try the Focus T25. It sounded pretty terrifying if I'm honest, however I've suddenly started to enjoy exercise - and I sweat a lot too whilst doing it which makes me feel like I'm actually getting somewhere and motivates me to do more. I only do 3 of these exercises a week as I think I would give up too easily doing five but they really are making me feel fitter already.

Having the right clothing has benefited also. Before I started my job with this fitness brand, I had no clue why anyone would spend more than £10 on some leggings to work out in. Now I know the benefits of compression clothing and so I bought myself some of these bad boys. The Virus Stay Cool Compression Pants. They increase the blood circulation whilst I'm working out so that my muscle recovery time is a lot quicker which is useful as usually I put off doing any sort of exercise when my muscles hurt which is a complete waste of time. I now barely get any muscle aches at all. If you want 10% off at Virus Performance UK type in the code WREN10 at the checkout.

I haven't changed my eating habits as such - I just refrain from eating a lot of chocolate which surprisingly is easy for me as I only ever eat it when it's near me.  I eat a banana in the morning when I get to work which stops me from snacking on rubbish throughout the morning too.

Clothing on holiday can actually make you feel more chubbier than you are and that's why I try and be really careful with what I buy. Have a look at my Holiday Essentials post as I bought a few things that make me feel quite confident about my body. Sometimes when holiday shopping, it's hard to find something that will suit your shape because a lot of the time the clothing is modeled on slimmer girls. If you buy something online, only keep it if it genuinely makes you feel happy to wear.

Another tip that will make you feel happier in your body is actually starting to pamper yourself. A foot mask, face mask, nice hairstyle, getting your nails done will honestly make you feel happier to be you. Don't by any means do this for anybody else other than yourself.

As I stated I am no expert when it comes to feeling confident. In fact, I have to fake it until I make it because self-confidence is hard to get when we live in a world full of judgmental people. At the end of the day if you are happy with your body, nobody else's opinion matters. Cellulite and thicker thighs should not be tackled for other people's sake. If you are happy with your body like this, or any other way - keep it! I unfortunately lack a lot of confidence with these areas in particular and that's why I want to change them to make myself happy - nobody else.

If you're going on holiday, enjoy it.

lots of love
Jennie x 


Holiday Essentials Haul


In case you weren't aware I'm off on my jollies in less than a month so of course I've spent most of my wages on holiday essentials (clothes etc.) I've not finished with the holiday shop yet but I thought I'd give you a nosy of what I've bought so far.

CLOTHING

A few months ago I bookmarked tons of clothes on my browser so that once I had enough money to spend on clothes I could go through them all and pick what I still loved. When I clicked on this dress I was in love straight away. It's from Motel Rocks and originally was over £30 but when I went back to it there was one size left and only one of that size and guess what? It was my size! Oh, and to put the cherry on top it had been reduced to £10 - fate or what? I love the quirkiness of Motel Rocks designs and I really loved this one. It's kind of grungy and I try (but usually fail) to have that sort of look going on.

When my mum went away in January we went holiday shopping for her clothes and we ended up in Matalan. Now Matalan is not a place I usually shop in but I was pleasantly surprised. I locked eyes with a White Kaftan and it was love at first sight. It was £10 but I had no reason to buy it in January so I left it. Well lucky me, I went online last week and they were still in stock so of course I bought one.

Shorts were next to buy on the agenda. I tried to see if I could fall in love with a pair from somewhere other than Topshop but I didn't succeed. I originally wanted some Black Ripped Mom Denim Shorts (grungy theme going on) but my size was not available and I wasn't going to chance fitting into a smaller size because let's be honest that wouldn't of  worked. I did manage to get some MOM shorts but they are blue denim rather than black - I'm okay with that though! I am yet to try them on so my opinion could drastically change - follow me on Twitter and I'm sure I'll post my reaction.

Swimming costumes, bikinis, tankinis, mankinis...this is where I struggle. I'm not very confident at all when it comes to wearing minimal clothing and I'm sure I'm not the only one. I spent hours trying to find something I liked. I decided to go for a swimming costume (although I will take a bikini) too as I just feel a little bit more comfortable in them. I ended up going for this one from Very for just over £20 (I got a bit of a discount through my dad's student discount). It's a tummy control one and I've tried it on and I'm surprisingly quite comfortable in it. It looks nice with my kaftan too!

Shoes, shoes, shoes. So I usually just wear Birkenstocks for my entire holiday but I thought I'd go for a change this time. After perusing on ASOS for a long, long time I decided I wanted a pair of flat, beach type sandals for the day and some cute, comfortable heels for the evening time. The flat's I bought were some white, comfy looking sandals and they looked so nice on the model, really simple and would look great with a cute nail colour on the toes. I've tried them on and oh my goodness, they're so comfortable! It usually takes my feet a while to break in shoes but these were just really, really comfortable!

The heels I went for were these tan heels with cute, lil' tassles round the ankles. I don't usually go for this style. I'm surprised I've barely bought any black clothing to be honest. These just stood out for me and looked comfy, yet gave me a bit of height and I've tried them on since and they live up to the standards I had expected them to be!

BEAUTY, HAIR, SKIN ETC. 

My skin needs serious work when it comes to this time of year. I'm really uncomfortable with showing my legs because I really don't like them. I decided to buy this dry brush to try and tackle cellulite. I have less than a month to tackle it so I don't expect a miracle but I hope it helps a little bit!

Whilst shopping on Feelunique.com I thought I'd buy some of my travel sized things so that I had them. I love John Frieda hair products so decided to buy the shampoo and conditioner for brunettes. Currently my hair is brown with a bit of an auburn tone to it but I'm going to get it dyed chocolate brown by the end of the month so that's why I thought this shampoo and conditioner would be a pretty good choice!

I also bought a travel sized sun cream because I seriously burn so badly and just end up looking like a tomato rather than a bronzed goddess.

I think that my feet are my least nurtured part of my body and surprisingly they're my least favourite part of my body. I suffer from dry skin on my feet thanks to great genetics from my parents. THANKS MUM AND DAD. I thought I would take the plunge and buy a FOOT MASK. A mask for feet. I bought this foot mask from Lush because anything Lush creates gives me confidence that something miraculous will occur on my body - my feet will be nice. I am finally going to give my feet the love and affection they truly deserve and then maybe they will look good on holiday with the ridiculous amounts of shoes I'm taking with me.

I also purchased a this new nail polish. I was definitely thinking 'what will look good with a tan' then after purchasing I realised 'oh, I don't tan!' so hopefully this shade will look equally as nice on pale/tomato skin.

Want to know more about my holiday? Follow my blog on Bloglovin' to keep up-to-date with my holiday related posts. Follow me on Instagram, where I'll be snapping away all through my holiday and follow me on Twitter where I'll be posting about all my dilemmas along the way.

lots of love

Jennie x